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I figured I would leave you all with something. What that something is I am not entirely sure right now, but I'm sure it will be good.

Hmmm...I always think to write various facts and such, but I am reluctant to be so open because of the various people who may or may not be reading what I write...but I do feel a need to explode sometimes with all the information I am holding inside, all the various things that are spread out among my friends...waiting for them all to come together one day and piece together all there is to know about me...but I suppose this is fairly normal. Hmm... well I suppose the thing I wanted to say when I first started this paragraph is that its been 2 months now and I am quite happy for that :-D I do hope that I can keep counting the months into years. So now that I've said this I feel a lil better. I suppose I will continue onward with my entry.

Well, let's see....I am now working my overnight shifts which is quite interesting, a lil boring at times, but good nonetheless. I am making the money which is important right now. Its nice to see the store when there's virtually no one in it so its quiet except for us. Its really weird though working all night and seeing the sun rise as my day progresses...seeing as usually it is the opposite way. Not to mention sleeping is a strange thing, managing to sleep as the sun is peaking in my window and shining on my face, but I manage to rest. I have to say though I am glad this is only summer and then I will be returning for higher education because
I am feeling the full-time strain knowing what it's like to work my for a living and not do much of anything else. Although....I am not so sure it will be overly different when I finish my education...I think more so I will just be in a different place in life with other priorities then and will be able to accept what is going on and what I need to do. I am still clinging to my last few scraps of being a kid...or even a teen for that matter. Soon I will be twenty...and thus in a new chapter of my life..what a strange thought indeed. Well hopefully I will find solace in some aspect of this new chapter, and find a way to organize everything into something I can deal with....hmm maybe I'm just overwhelmed right now...well given my rather rambling blog entry I'm gonna have to assume this is partially to do with it.

What else have I for you...hmm...I dunno I am holding back so many random facts...well screw it...I applied for a capital one card because I need to build my credit...it was their crappiest one so naturally I was accepted and now I just have to wait for the paperwork and I can really be an adult...I can charge...and get in debt!!!..of course I already have college debt so I suppose its not too majorly different, except this has to be paid back much more promptly. I don't intend to use the card for much anyway, I just need to establish credit although I don't know what I could possibly be doing with my college loans and house renting...:-P

Hmmmmm well I nagged my friend into sending this letter to his school, so I feel good about that, because I really wanna see him go someplace in the future, sometimes he just needs a push sometimes...I think lol. Anyway I hope all goes well for him. Ummm..I messaged my mom's SN today and got a response from my sister who has never used AIM before. It was amusing, I learned she's actually fairly computer proficient. She seems more confident online which is cool, and good and interesting. However now she wants to start using AIM...sooo :-P we'll have to work on that one lol. I hope though that maybe if she uses AIM more she'll become more confident in person.

aaaaaand I am too crazy right now...I am like madd worried and don't get to hang out with my friends as much as I'd like. I am feeling a separation from them and it is unpleasant. I still see Alex a decent amount cause he won't leave me along which I am very grateful for cause he and I are very close. John and Patrick are busy and working a lot so I am not seeing them as much not to mention now I am working as well sooo its really making it hard to see them which is not fun because we used to hang out almost constantly when we were younger, but I suppose time..college..work...other ppl, all change relationships to some extent. hmm I feeeel like I'm going a bit too far here...like I've said too much already...I should stop. Well I should delete...but I'm going stream of consciousness..mostly here soo I will just stop but not delete.

I will hopefully get to see Gillian soon who I haven't seeeeeen in foreverrrr so I am really looking forward to that. But that does require me getting up madd early..for me at least. 11 am haha and draggin my self to see her, but I cannot wait to see her, I really need to catch up with her, my life has been crazy since we last spoke!

Finally I am gonna mention that I cannot possibly wait to come into money which is very soon...tomorrow at some point, and Tuesday as well I believe, so I might feel more secure and more be able to gt a couple things that I absolutely neeeeeeeeeeed.

Anyway, I hope someone makes it through this huge maze without dying :-P although it is rather gigantic and I would understand no one reading it all.

THD!

So this post is dedicated to discussing some new occurrences in my life:

Firstly I will address the title of this post. THD is in reference to my recent employment at the new Home Depot store found in Paterson NJ. I will be working, in just a few hours from now actually, as a Freight Team member. That is to say I will be doing stock, i.e pack down, pack out, and unloading and such. I am on night shift from 10 pm til 7 am working approx. 40 hours a week. Its a lot, but for the summer its worth it cause then I can get the money I need to pay for things I need, such as my phone and clothes ;-) So yes this is one of the new happenings.

Next I will make mention of my haircut. I have now severely scaled it back because it was far too hot. Honestly it was on a whim one night. I happened to be sitting around with Alex...quite as usual...and decided it was far too hot and was sweating from my head...Sooo I took leave to a salon and got it cut. I went to the one by A&P for you locals that might stumble upon this...I didn't like it there. The woman didn't talk to me at all, and had no help to offer me in my decision to cut my hair. Also when she was finished I realized it was far shorter than I had wanted. Not to mention my mommy gave me $20 and I was only just barely able to pay my bill by scraping together random change from my pocket. Anyway, I do not believe I will return to that salon. Although the woman who cut Alex's hair was quite vocal and seemed like a nice person.

-After thought...I guess your attitude toward customers is important...odd...seeing as if I had a sufficient fan base you all might reconsider using that salon...good to know.-
I don't know of much else to speak of. I am eagerly awaiting payday so I might recoup and assemble myself.

If I think of anything else I'll let you know ;-)

Random Post

I found a very strange game for PS 1 which I am able to play on my PSP. It's called LSD and is all about Lucid Dreaming, and is supposed to be a Dream Diary of ten years someone at the development company.

It was released only in Japan in 1998 and is the strangest thing I have ever played. It doesn't have any specific purpose, one is just meant to wander aimlessly throughout the world as strange events occur. Being from the era of PS1 the graphics aren't great, but I must admit, it is an intriguing concept. I mean all you do is walk, but as you walk into objects it is the equivalent of interacting with them. Each dream is only ten minutes, but it is just so weird.

After a dream there is a graph displayed with x axes showing "Dynamic" and "Static" which is believed to apply to the amount of scene changes which occur throughout the dream. The y axes are "Upper" and "Downer" most likely referring to the mood of your dream. While it can be hard to impact the graph at first, after ten dreams or so, it seems one can begin to change the outcomes on the graph to some extent.

In addition to all these strange things, the soundtrack is also particularly odd as it is comprised of random loops that play over each other to play very strange sort of disjointed music.

Finally I 'd like to comment on the strangeness that progresses through this game. As I said you may begin to affect the graph after ten or so dreams, but not only is the graph affected, but also the way your dreams progress. Certain themes may develop, that is you may find yourself starting in a certain location a lot. Also you may find the colors to have changed to a very strange sort, embracing specific schemes repetitively.

Anyway I thought I would just take a chance to report on this game because I haven't written in my blog in a while and needed to say something.

Here is a link to more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LSD_(video_game)